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Sunday, December 18, 2005

11:31PM - PARTYPARTYPARTYPARTYPARTY!!!!!!!!

If you can read this, consider yourself officially invited to the 2nd Annual McFadden Chritmas Cookie Decorating Party to commence at 8:00 Tuesday, December 20, 2005 at 8246 Beekeman Place in Germantown!!! Plenty of cookie dough, icing, sprinkles, etc. will be available for your artistic pleasure, so bring your appetite and your creative juices :) Hope to see you all Tuesday!
P.S. Reply if your coming so we have some idea how much cookie stuff to buy!

Current mood: chipper

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

7:58PM

soooo i haven't posted in...hmmm...forever,and i don't intend to post again any time in the near future,but i wanted to let the masses know that at from 9'til like 1ish tonight folks are welcome to come pass the evening the humble McFadden abode and curl up to watch the ORIGINAL bad news bears (b/c there's no way a remake w/ billy bob thorton could possibly live up to the old walter mathau version). sodas and whatever else you can scavenge from our cabinets will be provided (plus the fruit plate that my mother will inevitably put out... those of you who have been here before for any reason will understand...) my apologies for the short notice!!

Sunday, January 2, 2005

12:39PM

soo...new year's was good. a calm, understated sort of evening: dinner w/ austin and then a family-ish party at carolyn's. i decided at about 10:00 that my (slightly delayed...) resolution for 2004 was to not be sober for another new year's eve and i am proud to say that i have, for the first time in my life, managed to keep a new year's resolution! it was a bit... otherworldly, i must say. we were surrounded by parents. mrs. work actually poured me a glass of bourbon. and a 4 glasses of champagne. and a cup of southern comfort. it made me feel...i dunno...old. it seems like going to college has suddenly catapulted me into this world of adulthood. how strange that in the course of four months adults have completely changed the way they relate to me. with the exception of my parents, they all treat me with a certain...respect. it's like we're finally on equal playing ground now. i like it, but it kind of frightens me. now they expect something. when you're young, it's kind of assumed that you won't talk much at on occasions when mingling is required. awkwardness is sort of a foregone conclusion at large social gatherings, so any effort you make to dispel that when you're young is something special and unexpected. now it's a requirement! it's strange to me that now i'm supposed to be the one asking questions and moving the conversation along. mingling is a lot harder than i'd ever thought it would be! the alcohol helped, though. now i know why they always serve wine at "grown-up" parties...

oh! in other (and completely unrelated) news, i saw proffer at the movies yesterday!!! i went to see sideways with my parents and there she was, standing in the refreshments line :) we didn't get to talk much, but she says she's pumped about tomorrow. i haven't talked to her since going to school, so i can't wait to catch up. i really missed her...

one last thing: since i successfully kept my 2004 new year's resolution, i made another one for 2005... in a much more timely fashion. i've decided that i don't do nearly enough pleasure reading, so my goal for this year is to read at least 12 books- one book each month- of good literary quality and that aren't for class. so i need suggestions!!! send me your favorites and i'll make a list!

Current mood: relaxed

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

9:42PM

i am generally acknowledged to be the sworn enemy of all things technological. my laptop broke in august and refuses to function on days that end in "y"... my cell phone battery frequently dies mid-sentence after charging all night... my aim works when it feels like it... and yet, here i sit typing. i'm not quite sure how to do this. never really kept a paper journal before, let alone one that other people read. austin told me over thanksgiving that i was "the most interesting boring person he'd ever met." i'm still not sure how i was supposed to take that, but i think he's probably right. much as i hate to admit it, nothing interesting ever really happens in my life. like take today for instance: woke up at 1, went to the gym, drove home from the gym in the sleet/snow/slush mixture that has been falling all day and is currently trapping me in my eerily silent home, took a shower.... then grandmother came...talked to her/ showed her college pictures/attempted for about 30 minutes to convince her that, despite the fact that i don't have a "vocational" major (i.e. premed,business,teaching,nursing)(actually, come to think of it, i don't really have a major at all...) i WILL be able to find a job when i graduate college in 4 years...finally gave up on that one...she's convinced that i'm wasting money in st. louis when i don't have a clear idea of what i want to do with the rest of my life. she is of the opinion that if i want to "explore," i ought to do it as cheaply as possible. she's probably right. i don't want her to be right... i don't want to end up 30, jobless, sleeping on my parents' couch in their retirement condo in florida. i've always thought i was cut out for bigger things than that... always assumed i was destined to do something "great," to be famous or respected or something... i think it might be an only-child thing. my parents always expected great things of me so i started to do the same. MISTAKE!!! i kind of did a reality check in august... it kind of sucks to lose your whole identity, to suddenly discover that you're not only no longer comparatively intelligent but that you really have no other talents...that you're not "great," only average. i spent so long trying to get into college that once i was there, i didn't quite know what to do with myself. i worked so hard the last 2 years of high school that i sort of forgot who i was outside of academics and resume-boosting extra-cirriculars....that and the whole not eating/obsessive exercising thing sort of took over my life. so first semester was interesting. but i'm really happy. i needed to start over, clean slate, new people, new environment find out what i really enjoy and who i really am, without people expecting something from me. i'm not that much different than i've always been, but at least now i know that i act the way i act not becuase that's how everyone EXPECTS me to act but because that's just who i am... don't know whether that's good or bad...just is.

ok, i think that might be enough rambling self-discourse for one evening... actually, more than enough!! i apologize!

i had a great time last night, btw. thank you all for coming :) *yea* cookies! i think we should make it an annual tradition... thoughts?

Current mood: thoughtful